Reality - Can't We Wake Up to It?

To all readers who have perked interest in my honest reflections, I appreciate your support in taking your time to read, to lend your eyes to an average schoolboy's words and silent feelings.

To those who have read Lord of the Flies (superbly interesting book by the way), an ever recurring theme is that of appearances versus reality, the difference between knowing and doing the right choice. Having said that, isn't it ironic that we people , despite having spent decades looking for that self-righteousness and preaching the need for clear judgement, often rush about like agitated ants, oblivious to the actual surroundings and values that come with each lesson?

As a schoolboy, I often felt that anarchy and chaos would always plague any school, for rules always have people seeking to challenge them. And put a bunch of intelligent and hot-headed youngsters together, and you get an eyeful of rowdy movement, a earful of shouting voices and sometimes even a noseful of sweat from bodies wet after soccer practice. Ah well, who am I to criticise my fellow teenagers or schoolmates, to force my sense of morals among them? Thy flame in my heart is strong, but smothering this light of direction are countless wet blankets thrown by people who simply a: dont care as long as it doesn't affect them, b: know yet participate in the "fun", c: find sick amusement in threatening the harmony for their entertainment.

Surely, surely, after countless reminders, scoldings, and pleas, cant we wake up from the illusion that anarchy equals fun? Can't we see that such perverse actions of name-calling, slang spouting and childish actions are not amusing at all? Are we really so devoid of empathy for others that we only serve to wreak havoc for our amusment? Are we really so bored that we use such meaningless actions for some chaotic "entertainment"?

I wonder if there are people like me who are tired, yes, tired from all this mockery, who just which to concentrate in peace and wish for a united team. As I wish to say, I believe we have a flame of resolution, but it is blocked by our darkness of cruelty and sick humour. To us, a famiglia, I wish for change to happen, and I will provide that change. I'm past worrying whether others would snub me, for in my heart I know that unless they refuse to change, they are just shallow and empty people. So as Sawada Tsunayoshi (from REBORN!) declared, "I will stop all chaos with my dying will of regret," I shall channel my regret of not salvaging the situation earlier into changing this class for the better.

A gentle plea: Isn't it time we learnt when to do the right thing, at the right time? Hoping for unity and peace soon.

Charge on,
Wei En (Sky Flame)